NOISY

I'm disappointed and no one feel that

I'm hurting but not one see that

I'm clueless and no one knew that

I'm hopeless right now and no one figured that


I am extremely pissed off by all my relatives who assumed that I am selfish for not wanting to let people know. I am extremely sad that no one knew how disappointed I am. I am extremely appalled by their thinking. Everyone think its okay that I studied and whatever result come its okay.

ITS NOT.

DO YOU KNOW HOW DISAPPOINTED I AM. DO YOU KNOW HOW ANGRY I WAS TO MYSELF. DO YOU KNOW HOW I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THE COURSES GIVEN TO ME. DO YOU KNOW THAT

NO YOU DONT BECAUSE ALL YOU GUYS CARED ABOUT IS WHAT IS MY RESULTS. DO YOU KNOW THE HOURS I PUT IN THE SUBJECTS AND STILL FAILED?!

NO YOU GUYS DONT

BECAUSE YOU DONT UNDERSTAND MY DISAPPOINTMENT

NO ONE UNDERSTANDS


AND I AM VERY SAD ABOUT THIS

BECAUSE REALLY EVEN IF I DID SHOW MY PARENTS, WILL THEY NOT COMPARE MY RESULT FOR MY MATHS WITH OTHER SUBJECTS? WILL THEY NOT RUB SALT INTO THE WOUND? WILL THEY BE OKAY WITH IT? BECAUSE ALL MY LIFE, THEY WERE NOT PROUD OF MY ACHIEVEMENTS WHEN I ALREADY FELT THAT I HAVE TRIED MY BEST AND ACHIEVED WHAT I WANTED. AND THIS TIME ROUND, I'VE FINALLY DISAPPOINT MYSELF AND WHAT MAKES YOU THINK ITS OKAY TO SHOW EVERYONE. IT'S NOT SOMETHING FOR ME TO FLAUNT.


CANT YOU LEAVE ME ALONE

I'M ALREADY THIS SAD AND NONE OF YOU ARE HELPING


I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH FOR LETTING MYSELF DOWN

I WANT TO PICK MYSELF AGAIN AND TRY AGAIN BUT THE ROAD IS JUST TOO FAR AND I'M REALLY SCARED THAT I WILL FAIL AGAIN AND DISAPPOINT MYSELF AGAIN.

I HATE MYSELF