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Hi.

Things hadn't been right for me, i've been angry in a while.
I can't seem to settle down.
It seems like everything is making it change.
I feel lost between reality and dreams.
I can't understand myself.

WHY DO I FUCKING CARE ABOUT PEOPLE'S FEELINGS WHEN THEY DONT?
WHY DID I TRY MY BEST TO MAKE YOU PEOPLE SMILE BUT YOU DONT CARE?
WHY DID ALL OF THIS HAD TO OCCUR IN ME?
DO YOU PEOPLE EVEN KNOW THAT I AM SAD?
DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHETHER EVERYTHING ITS ALRIGHT FOR ME?
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.

THIS IS WHAT I DESERVE FOR BEING THE MOST CARING PERSON.
THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR HELPING THOSE IN NEEDS.
THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR LETTING PEOPLE JUST USED ME EVERYDAY!
FUCK YOU.

I'm gonna end this post, i'm fucking sad over everything
But for him, i think i am more sad, this is just terrible.
Everything turn to worse.
I'm better off not trying to care.
I'll try not to care anymore.
I dont want to be used again and again.

Ayuni